Sunday, January 01, 2006

2006 -- Day One

I wish I could say that my resolutions was fulfilled. That I was feeling connected to the universe and alive.

But I am still downtown with the family hanging out in a cramped room. Sex between the porn king and I is out of the question. There just isn't any privacy. He woke me by playing with my nipples. Hardly an act of foreplay, since nothing was going to happen. In fact, I found it a bit annoying. It is a bit cruel to work me into any level of arousal when nothing can come of it.

The rest of the day was spent in both sexual and general frustration. Not getting touched in a meaningful way and stuck with the kids who are beging for whatever we are unwilling to give them. He gets them worked up then gets irritated with them for reacting. It is a lousy game that I wish we could get past.

Perhaps I will have better luck when I get home. But I suspect that the same set of circumstances will exist.

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