My body is twitching and shaking.

I feel more attached to my body and indeed the world than I have in a week.

Energy flows through my body and exiting my fingertips and toes. Not disappearing as it leaves me but invigorating me as it connects me to the universe.

Even my clothes touching my skin makes shiver. Like I am jumping out of my skin. Every twitch re-ignites the fire.



Why do I forget that I can create these connections for myself and don't need anyone else. Yes, it is sweeter when shared but can also be lonely when it is used selfishly. I need this elation to reinvigorate my heart.

Gee, you are in a good mood

That was what I heard this afternoon.

What is wrong with that I asked.

Nothing, you just seem to be in a particularly good mood is all. Ahh , that Thera... No getting anything past her.

Of course, this is their first day back to school. The first time in weeks I haven't had to spend the day with husbands, kids and inlaws fighting about what needed to be done (or where one couldn't smoke, not that helped me in anyway). A day for being able to think again. To try to feel the parts of me that had to be ignored, to the extent that had thought they had died.

But

They did not.

With a gentle touch they came to life.