Happy HNT

Sorry, just in a quizzy kind of mood...

You Are Aphrodite!

A total shining star with a ton of admirers And no wonder: you live life to the fullest! When things get bad, you can easily take off to a happier place But occasionally, you need to deal with problems head on

What Goddess Are You?

You are Bettie Page

Girl next door with a wild streak You're a famous beauty - with unique look And the people like you are cultish about it

What Famous Pinup Are You?

I hate a day like this.

Yes, the weather was beautiful. Bright and sunny after an evening of snow. The trees looked beautiful. The snow was still clean. The temperature was warm despite the snow.

But inside the house, everything sucked.

The girls were on the weekend worst, fueled by the birthday hubris of my older daughter. According to her blog... that I monitor religiously, she has a boyfriend. Lovely.. clearly an early bloomer, unlike her mother, as she is not quite 11.

But wait. This is the boy that is supposed to go the movies with her this evening. Ok, there is a girlfriend going too. But is this outing on the up and up? I don't know. The girl has decided that she wants the friend's mother to drive them. No surprise there. The kid's mother drops her off at the movies or goes to another movie.... Is this the chaperone I want for my daughter, when she goes on her first semi-date even though she is WAYYYY to young. Simple answer = NO.

So, I tell her that she can go with this crew, but I am driving. Is this ok with her (this is not me asking permission, but more of a rhetorical question)? Absolutely NOT. She decided that she would rather stay home. I told her that she had until 4:00 pm to think it over and make her final decision.

When time was up her father informed her... and asked for the final decision. She stuck to her guns. She hated me; blamed me for ruining her life and rejected everything about me. FINE... in fact, Fan-Fucking-Tastic!

at 4:05... I got the..."So when are we leaving?"

WTF?! We aren't!

For the next hour, I got to suffer from listening to her and the Porn King arguing for her to be able to go... After all, I promised.

I have to say, this is not the first time, I have been whiplashed by this child's moods. But I am DONE! The Porn King will always take her side in these matters since his first objective is to have the children quiet. This child has learned that any noise tends to win her her hearts desire for that reason.

and to prove the point...

The Porn King took her and her sister to dinner and a movie. I was "given" the night off... How handy.

Well I spent the evening on Adult Friend Finder looking for solace. SO BITE ME.

And I would have sought it if the timing and person had been right.

Luckily, I have been used and spit out by nature and my husband. The blog that remains is only interesting to fetishists and the like. I am about ready to go there. I am sorry, tired and sad. I find it hard that it could get worse... particularly if I am the awful, evil, cruel bitch that I am purported to be...

I hope that the rest of you have a good weekend,

But assume that I am miseral 'til Monday...

Happy HNT!

I remember when I had a normal looking bellybutton. Round, flat, cute.... Having kids, c-sections, a gallbladder removed and a hernia (thank you c-sections) that have left me with this sorry misshapen excuse of a navel.

But it is MINE!

Visible (well here anyway)evidence that I am a woman of experience who has lived her life as it was handed to her. Without these scars and stretch marks I might just be any other woman.

My choices of colors tell alot about me

LushlyMe took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Her need to feel more causative and to have a wide..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

Can you see my smile?

What a lovely day to be running errands... it was cold, damp and gray... but somehow I have managed to find a way to make it bright, warm and wet.... Everyone should try it! Even screaming children have no effect on me! I wish I could bottle it up for another rainy day...

I promised!

Vatum and Vixen! Please be generous... I admit, that I am unattractive

Don't say that I didn't warn you!

I have comments!

Does this mean that you want to play with my ass?

Done!

In the year 2006 I resolve to: Give myself an anal probe. Get your resolution here

 

What a morning

I can't remember how long it has been
since I have used so many toys in such
a short period of time. Fingers, lips,
tongue, mouth, legs, hands, legs, feet,
breasts, clit, pussy and ass all working
to a single goal. Screams and floods
of wetness as my body spasms in
joy - a connection to humanity and
all the universe.

Thank you.

An Escape

While downtown with the family yesterday, we finally managed to get out for a walk. And by managed, I mean that they finally opened the streets around our hotel. Ahhh falling ice... nothing like the chance of random death falling upon you from above to take some of the fun out of the holiday season.

As we were walking, my two sweet daughters started in on me about all the things that I don't do for them and why I am so cruel when I snapped. The porn king was walking with us too so I just turned the corner and walked away. I needed a couple of non complaint filled minutes.

So I wandered. In the cold and rain until I got to Watertower Place. I had been by it a couple of days before... but frankly, my head would have exploded being in there. There had just been too many people. Yesterday was different. It was manageable. As I walked by the front windows of the Marshall Field's I saw something in the window that caught my eye. Apparently, Field's is home to one of the Lush boutiques!

Now how can I walk away from a sign like that? So in I walked in (soon unfortunately to be another Macy's due to the Macification of America) and bought myself some pretty, sweet smelling treats.

Now, of course, I am home. The children are still screaming. The porn king is still over-reacting and acting more childish then they are and I am considering drowning my sorrows in a tub of hot water and a bath bomb. Chelsea Gardens anyone?




How I wish I could lay there quietly soaking in silence. My hands roaming over my wet body arousing myself until I explode... or maybe being joined by a lover who slides into the water with me....

But not today.

They are lovely and sensitive nipples... I can see why he would want to touch them... but why not finish the job...

Ooops I guess I know the answer to that...

2006 -- Day One

I wish I could say that my resolutions was fulfilled. That I was feeling connected to the universe and alive.

But I am still downtown with the family hanging out in a cramped room. Sex between the porn king and I is out of the question. There just isn't any privacy. He woke me by playing with my nipples. Hardly an act of foreplay, since nothing was going to happen. In fact, I found it a bit annoying. It is a bit cruel to work me into any level of arousal when nothing can come of it.

The rest of the day was spent in both sexual and general frustration. Not getting touched in a meaningful way and stuck with the kids who are beging for whatever we are unwilling to give them. He gets them worked up then gets irritated with them for reacting. It is a lousy game that I wish we could get past.

Perhaps I will have better luck when I get home. But I suspect that the same set of circumstances will exist.