I have a life

ok

I don't have a job anymore. The porn kind works strangely. Sometimes he travels all the time. When he travels he covers the globe without warning and without a time limit. These little details are considered my issue.

I have a girlfriend, M. Love her. She loves me.

But currently she is obsessed that I have no life. I am the mother of 2. 3 if you count the porn king. and he should be included. I run hither and yon dealing with girlie bullshit. This is my job. This is my life... So to be told that my obsession with my children is an indicationthat I have no life truly pisses me off.

Thoughts? or is it true I have no life?

frustration

Not sure what to say.

I had one of those "come to Jesus" talks with the porn king where I explained that I have been lonely and at my living end. He allegedly understands. But is really busy at the moment. I think I have explained quite explicitly that life is full of of moments. To me, this means that he continues to ignore me. He thinks that as soon as his "deal" goes through everything will go right back to normal again. I have been waiting 4 years. I am not holding my breath at this point.

The fact is, that we get along quite swimmingly about non personal issues. Maybe the best you can hope for from a spouse is a friend. It is the question of fidelity that makes the situation murky.

What is better?

Loyalty (which I believe is different than fidelity) or
Fidelity..

Frankly I would prefer Loyalty. Fidelity from him, I have. It gets me no where. Loyalty, I don't have. Anytime I have ever had a disagreement with family, friends, YMCA employees, or random strangers he has been quick to take that person's side. The worst situations have been with my in-laws. They pretty much have carte blanche to say anything that they want to me. After all, if I object there is no one to support me.

I have been called a bad mother for working, for breastfeeding, for moving their bedrooms... you name it. It has been done. When I complain, bitch or argue back, I get this wall of crap from the porn king. I must have misunderstood; English isn't his father's first language (but he HAS been speaking it since 1951); I am too sensitive, etc., etc.

I have had to deal with virtually every kiddie situation alone. I brought the first girl home from the hospital alone. And no, I will NEVER LET THAT GO. She was premature and I was recovering from surgery myself. I needed him and he wasn't there.

I want to be important to him and cherished. I want to needed and desired. I am not. Do I give up waiting for him to realize this marriage is busted and care enought to want to do something about it.

I have wanted to blog over the last few days.

I want to say something insightful. But the well has been dry. I am feeling drained. The porn king continues on negotiating a deal for the sale of his company. In the last 5 years he has poured virtually all of his energy into this endeavor. He has given up a meaningful relationship with his girls. Traded our marriage. And risked all of our well-beings on this venture. Now that it is time to sell...well he wants to get the deal done and doesn't want to haggle about the price. Even though there was an original agreement discussed with much sweeter terms.

I am angry that my sacrifices have been sold so cheaply. And he is mad at me as a result.

Add to this the everyday traumas of dealing with a preteen.

I have cried all day.

Only my little girl has noticed or cared.

And unfortunately it has not been enough for me.

I need more at this point.

And?

Your Ideal Relationship is Polyamory

You want to have your cake... and everyone else's.Which isn't a bad thing, if everyone else gets to eat too!You're too much of a free spirit to be tied down by a traditional relationship.You think relationships should be open and free, with few restrictions.

What's" Your Ideal Relationship?

Questions

Are we right for assuming that a marriage can stay happy forever.

Throughout history, marriage was about protection for women or the transfer of property. Love and romance were never considered something that was expected. These things could be found, discretely outside of marriage if one was lucky or rich enough to be able to flaunt the rules.

Years ago, I though that I would have a marriage would be happy and last... sucker that I was. Now I am finding myself, in a platonic relationship. I feel more like a servant than wife. I used to try to work extra hard to keep the lines of communication between us open. I used to try to be agreeable to things that he was interested in to keep the connection. I stopped a while ago. I stopped trying to jump him. I got tired being told no, that he was tired. I take care of my own sexual needs at this point. He doesn't even seem to notice. He doesn't notice that I am not angry that this relationship is disintegrating. He doesn't ask why. or even that is collapsing.

I am not sure what to do anymore. I would prefer to be more honest. But I am not sure that it would get me anywhere. I am feeling lonely and lost.

What I like

I am a simple kind of girl...

I like long, soft wet kisses

My skin being touched by soft fabric, the back of your fingernails, your wet lips or any other part of your body

I like to feel special to you

I like to have my nipples gently sucked on

I like my clit rubbed with wet fingers

I want to be deeply penetrated

and suckle your hard rod and give my body, heart and soul to you

but

I don't want to beg for your attention.

It breaks my heart and kills my soul.

And destroys what we have had

This is more like it

I said I liked the spotted dick!

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Something kinky is going on with Neptune

I'll take a spotted dick