I have wanted to blog over the last few days.

I want to say something insightful. But the well has been dry. I am feeling drained. The porn king continues on negotiating a deal for the sale of his company. In the last 5 years he has poured virtually all of his energy into this endeavor. He has given up a meaningful relationship with his girls. Traded our marriage. And risked all of our well-beings on this venture. Now that it is time to sell...well he wants to get the deal done and doesn't want to haggle about the price. Even though there was an original agreement discussed with much sweeter terms.

I am angry that my sacrifices have been sold so cheaply. And he is mad at me as a result.

Add to this the everyday traumas of dealing with a preteen.

I have cried all day.

Only my little girl has noticed or cared.

And unfortunately it has not been enough for me.

I need more at this point.