HNT-73

After a bath or getting out of the pool instead of toweling off, I prefer to air dry.

I love the feeling of the sun and breeze on my skin...

Don't you?

I know what I am and what I want

No body has every accused me of having a sweet personality.

I am fat. I am opinionated. I swear like a sailor or any Brit that I have ever met. I can ocassionally drink like a fish. I admit to and relish in my baser needs and desires and indulge in them when I can. If you need help and I can give it to you, I will. I will put up with your bad moods because I figure you have had a bad day, or week, or month.

But

I am a woman who is tired of criticism from the people who claim to love me about how I don't live up to THEIR expectations of me.

If I say that I am staying with PK believe that is a decision that I have considered long and hard and it was made because my children have had too much tumult in their lives. I maybe occassionally miserable about it. But that is an absolute in my life. At least for the foreseeable future and by that I mean nearly a decade.

I don't want to be saved.

I don't want to be fixed.

I want to be appreciated for the flawed person that I am.

Not my perfected ideal.

My life is full of people who want to fix me so live up to their expectations of me. I don't need more.

I will take you at face value and accept you for the flawed person that you are... I want no less in return.

HNT-72

God what a week...

We got home from LI on Sunday night, which naturally leaves me two whole days to get the girls ready for school. And a blistering hard two days they always are. (Apparently we believe in testing our getting-ready-skills to the limit)

So now that they are off (and I won't show you a picture of them since they are far more beautiful than I) (Right, Poppy and Jolly Roger?) I will show you how I took my brief respite today? (they only had half a day)

It is official

I'm a whore.

My husband threatened to divorce me last night because he saw pictures that a friend sent me of his cock. Never mind that the Porn King looks at whatever images float this boat. Apparently it is not allowed for the likes of me.

So naturally after threatening me, in the morning he wants sex to assert his total control over me. And like a coward I give in. He always chooses the time for sex to suit him. First thing in the morning. Preferably not awake. No foreplay. Add in the fact that I was completely hung over and felt miserable...

He proves his dominance over me

and I gave in.

I am nothing.

No one.

Sub human

HNT-71

Sorry folks,

No video this week... but I did get this taken last week...

Gee, I love, water.

It is that time of the month

He walked the dog with me.

Playfully grabbed my ass.

Yup.

It is that time of the month.

He wants head.

sigh.

HNT-70a

Mea culpa... I told you that I was new to this... Hopefully this did it! Sorry anyone.

HNT-70

And I am trying a video entry!

Yes, I am sure that I fucked this up... or you can hear the lilting tones of PK, the girls or Cash Cab in the background.... Oh, and please note all the mosquito bites I have gotten on my tender flesh... Do you know how hard it is to resist scratching those?

I did figure out how to do this though...



Or maybe not..

You tell me!

After a lovely day

Comes the crappy one....

Yesterday was Thera's birthday. We had a lovely time... took her to the village, bought her presents, had lunch out... time in the pool, out to dinner... it was all lovely

So naturally today everyone is irritated... and largely with me.

I won't take Thera to the previously scheduled trip to the wineries.. why? Gee, I don't know... maybe because she is 11 and will get bored.

And PK?

Well even though I am not interrupting any scheduled events, he is irritated that I am going to see friends tonight. Why? Probably because I have friends here. And he isn't invited... because I want something for myself.

Naturally, he has pronounced the entire event as dodgy...

Gosh, I hope so then!

My need

I need to taste of you
to explore your body with my hot, wet tongue
desparate to find you
to impale myself on you
grasping your hardness
completing me

Hoping to find the spot where we stick together for ever
to keep that feeling always
close and tight
wet and hard
mine and yours
ours
always

The love in your eyes
a gift
a state of grace

HNT-69

I like to call this one Post-BlogHer Cleavage....

Sorry for not posting more the last week or so. We are on our way out of town for our annual trek to my in-laws house on Long Island. Once there I will be able to post early and often as there will be a much better adult to child ratio....

Hmmm, will I get my hour of naked swimming? Will I be able to visit my North Fork friends before they leave for Maine?

Stay tuned and we will all find out together!

How do they know?

When we want to be alone?

To touch and kiss?

To pull you down onto the bed and cover you with my soft body?

Will you caress me gently? Building the fire in me slowly until my body burns with desire. We explore the hidden points of yearning in each of our bodies until nothing else will satisfy our need. You slowly sink your hardness into my welcoming body, making me remember that I am loved and wanted.



Girl with a Dog
Jean-Honore Fragonard
1770

or

Will you throw me down on the bed? Kissing and nibbling your way down my body until you reach under my skirt and pull off my panties then inhaling and tasting the sweetness of my wet pussy. Will you listen to me squeal my pleasure until your face is washed in my delight of you? Then nudging me over, planting your cock in my juiciness and plowing deep into me until you drench me with your desire for me.

How do they know? How long can we wait?